Having blogged previously about contentedness, I am led to another subject that, on the surface at least, seems to be the antithesis of content.
As Paul, I am learning the secret of contentedness in all situations (Phil 4). At the same time, as a leader and a man seeking the heart of God, I have a whole set of burdens that constantly chips away at my sense of contentment.
- I have a burden to draw close to God. Of all of the things that weigh on me, the sense of urgency and priority to draw close to Jesus is the greatest. It wasn’t always the case, but I have a sense of unmet hunger to know the closeness of Jesus. The image I get is of the Sermon on the Mount where Jesus sits with his disciples and teaches them. I want to be in that circle, listening and learning from my master. I want to know Him and be known.
- I have a burden for discipleship. I want to see men and women who follow Jesus so closely that they come to act like him, having a relationship with the Father and living in a way that overflows from their closeness. Living in the reality of change that results. “He [Jesus] is the one we proclaim, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone fully mature in Christ. To this end I strenuously contend with all the energy Christ so powerfully works in me.” (Colossians 1:28-29)
- I have a burden for the Church. I want to see communities of faith in Jesus that are modeled on the New Testament, where the Spirit of God is alive and vital, transforming men and women through encounter with the living God. A Church in the image of Isaiah 6:1-8, where the presence of God is so overwhelming that the people are driven to their knees in realisation and confession (“Woe to me! … I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty.’” (Isaiah 6:5). Where they find forgiveness and restoration, healed by God, so that they might respond to the call of God to go into the world and take the presence of the Living one with them. I want to see Church that is evidently the living presence of God in the world, outshining and defeating the rule of sin and death.
- I have a burden for the world. I do not want to see the world judged and condemned, but saved and transformed. I know that judgment is coming, for all of us. I know, in faith, that God will judge the living and the dead and that not all people will be welcomed into the eternal presence of God. That not all people have been recreated by submission to the loving power of God (Romans 8:1-8) and so are subject to the death of sin. I take no joy in judgment although I thank God for my life. My burden is to see AS MANY AS POSSIBLE SAVED so that when we stand together before God we will not be subject to the judgment we deserve for our sin, but will receive the freedom that Jesus purchased for us by dying in our place on the cross.
- I have a burden that lies upon me like a huge cross of wood. I want to see the presence of God in a way that, currently, I don’t. I believe that in the real presence of God people cannot ever remain the same and that it is only through the presence of God that people will be changed from sinners lost into sons and daughters recreated. People are not persuaded to receive salvation. (So many churches waste their time seeking to provide a rational argument for faith in God). The only thing that really persuades people to come to faith in God through Jesus is a real encounter with Him through the Holy Spirit. Faith in God is not an exercise in rationality. Rationality is simply knowledge that can be conceived by the human mind and validated by human understanding. GOD IS SO MUCH BIGGER THAN THE HUMAN MIND! How can we expect the knowledge of God the Father to be contained in human understanding? The knowledge of the love and power of God is only understood in faith by the whole being. Body, mind, and spirit.
So I find myself struggling. How am I supposed to find contentedness? I cannot express my feelings and thoughts in words so I will, once again, borrow from Paul;
“But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ – the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. I want to know Christ – yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.” (Philippians 3:7-11)
I struggle. I have a burden for God’s Kingdom that I am helpless to express, let alone achieve. Yet, I have a desire to be content because it is clear that contentedness is a key sign that one is entrusting one’s faith entirely to the Father God.
More will follow…